For the Weary and Broken

This week has been humbling as I've been waiting on the Lord for a miracle. I've asked many people to pray for me. I've had many people encourage me with scripture and the nature of who God is. 

The truth is God is Faithful. No matter what circumstances may come, no matter what emotions well up, God is Faithful and still on the Throne (Psalm 29:10). 

I'd like to invite you into the depths of my heart as I share my journaled prayer from this morning:

"Dear Daddy, I have so many thoughts and emotions. I'm broken and without sight of your light. The enemy is drawing closer to me, speaking lies against me...against You! I can't wait until You prove him wrong. Your testimonies are great and You are wonderful. Remember me from Your Holy Place. Thank You for interceding for me- which is stronger than human faith. Strengthen these feeble bones so that I may fight for justice upon the earth with You. I am weary. Where are You, Valiant King? Where is Your army, where are Your horses? Rescue me from this dry land! I am not a beggar, but Your daughter! Have mercy on Your beloved daughter, that I may be strong in You. Have mercy on Your beloved, that You may be glorified. Have mercy that Your name would be declared great in the land."

I can feel the prayers of the saints who are praying for me. I've been at a really low place emotionally, but God has sustained me. I am so weak, but I feel His strength holding me. The enemy has been speaking lies about God's character, but the Spirit has filled my mind with His truth. I have nothing to give, but I am nothing without Him.


There have been two songs that have really ministered to me during my season of humbling and brokenness. Ask the Lord to minister to your heart as you listen to these songs.

1. Laura Hackett- Lowest Place
2. Laura Hackett- Beautiful Mercy

Also, I've been memorizing/meditating on Psalm 42. It has been cleansing me as I read it, write it, sing it, pray it, paraphrase it and find cross-references for it. I encourage you to do the same as you allow the Lord to heal your heart and find rest in Him. 

Believe that your breakthrough is coming! Find people who will fight with you for that breakthrough. You can not manage it on your own, and the enemy will come in and distract you from any hope. Recognize the signs: loss of hope, thinking that no one else understands or could ever understand, isolating yourself, and dimmed faith, including lies about God (i.e. "that God doesn't care for me," "God doesn't love me," "if God loved me, I wouldn't be going through this," etc). Because the enemy has one mission: to steal, kill and destroy! If you feel like you are trapped without hope, without knowledge of the light at the end of the tunnel, you are not alone. I know what it feels like to be in despair. My emotions were not aligned with what I knew to be true. Despite my circumstance, despite my emotions, I looked up to my Creator and pleaded for mercy. I allowed myself to be vulnerable to many people, and ask for specific prayer. Because I believe that God answers prayer, and that prayer is a powerful weapon against the devil. Prayer unites the body of Christ, no matter where they are in the world. It's prayer that sends armies of angels to war against the devil and his minions. God is victorious! He is Strong and Mighty! And there is no pit too deep that Jesus cannot reach. God's grace is sufficient. Believe it! You cannot fight it alone. Look to Jesus, and ask for mercy. If nothing comes out of your mouth, just say His name or even groan. He knows the depths of your heart and the longings of your soul! Believe that joy is coming! Believe that your heart will be healed! Be bold in asking!